I'm Engaged}

(Wow!  It's been a while since I last blogged.  I have a lot to catch up on.  I will start with where I left off and try to go in chronological order. ) 

I'm ENGAGED!!!  Greg and I got engaged on March 10, 2012.  {Our first date was on March 9, 2010.}  I am truly so happy!  There is not a better person that could fit into mine and Kaya's life.  The three of us seem to blend so seamlessly.

For a long time I thought that I would be better off just with me and Kaya.  I didn't want to get married to anyone unless I found someone who was going to enhance our lives.  I wanted to make sure that it was as good for Kaya as it was for me. Sometimes, I wish the 'me', now could go back to the 'me', then and say: 'I hate to spoil the end for you, but everything is going to be okay.' I never thought I'd find my perfect match, but here he is.  I saw a quote the other day that seemed to define my life perfectly: "And then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was greater than the risk it took to bloom." Something that I thought would be so scary has seemed to just flow so naturally into an amazing life.

When I first got divorced I wasn't sure I was going to make it.  But as time has gone by I have learned to find the beauty in every single day and every single experience.  Unknowingly to me, I started a new journey with just me and Kaya almost 5 years ago.  I have learned more about myself through my struggles over the last several years than I ever thought was possible. I am so much stronger and better than I ever imagined I could be.  I didn't realize the changes I was making until I reflected back on the person I use to be. "Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back...everything is different." I guess, what would be the point of living if we didn't let life change us? I know that I am an entirely different person than I was 5 years ago.  My life is not even close to what I thought it would be... but it's better!  I guess sometimes you have to let the bad happen to make room for amazing.  God really did have a plan for me all along and as soon as I decided to let him take the reigns its been nothing short of perfect.  "Your journey has molded you for the greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time.  It took each and every situation that you have encountered to bring you to the now.. and now is right on time." Most of the time I feel like God was leading me on a direct path to Greg this entire time.  I feel so incredibly blessed to have such an amazing person as mine, forever.  

I am so happy I took the leap of faith to change my life...Because it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are and live the life you were meant to live.

Next time you think of beautiful things, don't forget to count yourself in. Life is as beautiful as you want to make it... so make it incredible.  I know I did!! xoxo